Supression

I am being suppressed by schoolwork. I am in turn suppressing my emotions. A sick circle. My friend reminded me that when I am stressed I need to isolate those emotions involved with my stress, so I can deal with those emotions individually and not as some unconquerable sum. I told him that I don't know what my emotions are because if I let them run free, I would have a nervous breakdown, so instead I become a. homework. robot. Today I got a call that my rent was overdue and I had a 20 $ late fee as of today. I left my chemistry lab with a chemical boiling on my stove and ran to the bank to get a money order, because I didn't have time after lab because I had to finish/turn in my biochemistry homework. The teller was quite impressed with my dedication.

On another note, I am excited about fall. The rain and slight wind makes me think of scarves and umbrellas, walks in cool breezes, hot chocolate and beautiful colors. We always look at spring as being the "new beginning" but for me, I find a new beginning in each turn of the seasons. And I am definitely in need of a change.

I think as a tender mercy, as I was walking from place to place tonight, I kept running into people I hadn't seen or talked to in a while. Laurel and the half conversation, Louise meeting my mom, Sunny giving me directions, and Dani encouraging me to snag a brownie. Thanks guys.